My Heart is Yours {Coffee for Your Heart}


You won't relent until You have it all. 
my heart is Yours.

I set You as a seal, upon my heart
as a seal upon my arm
for there is love,
that is strong as death
jealousy demanding as the grave
and many waters can not quench this love

come be the fire inside of me
come be the flame upon my heart
come be the fire inside of me
until You and I are one.

//"You Won't Relent" by Jesus Culture//

He wants my heart. All of it. Every beat. Every desire. Every longing. He calls after me, naming me Beloved, asking for this: a sacrifice worthy of Him. How could I hold anything back from such a Love? It's sinking in now, what it means to give everything to Him.
It means that if I never travel outside of my country again, I still love Him. I still trust Him.
If the tests come back, and I have this disease, I still believe that He is in control; that He knows best.
If they give no answers, and I continue to wonder in vain what is wrong with me, I commit it to Him.
If joint pain keeps me from learning the things I wish I could, He is still enough.
If I am left behind by loved ones, or they leave me behind, I cling to Him as my constant.
If every fear I've ever had becomes reality, I believe His love still prevails.
This is what the sacrifice calls for. Abandonment of self. Trust that no matter how this world may chew me up and spit me out, I am still in God's hands, and we. still. win. Because He's already won. 
What a freeing thought. 
If I am destitute, I am still rich according to the kingdom. He is my reward.
If I am diseased, He promises an eternity without pain. I am whole in Him. He endured far worse for me. 
If I am stranded, He can still use me. The fact is, you don't have to move an inch for God to work through you, if you are surrendered to Him. 
So I surrender. 
If my speech falters, I trust that He will speak through me nonetheless. 
He has a history of displaying His strength and glory through those the world deems weak and unlovely. Insignificant. 
He gives value to those the world has shamed. How crazy is that?!
So what in this whole wide world do I have to be afraid of. 
Fear itself. The devil tries to immobilize me, isolate me, and make me ineffective. So he tries to scare me into numbness. He tries to influence me and make me doubt the goodness of God's plan. 
My great-great-grandchildren may hear stories of me. 
Let them hear I fought illness all my life.
Let them hear I had barely a penny to my name.
Let them hear that I couldn't play an instrument to save my life.
Let them hear I never traveled far.
Let them hear I was far from famous. 
So long as they do not hear that I gave up on my God.
So long as they don't hear that I lived in fear of the future. 
So long as they do not hear that I was great by the warped standards of the world. 
Please let the stories be of how I loved my Lord, no matter what.
Now I live with this in mind. 
If I gain the world, but lose my soul, I live in vain. 
If I have it all, but have not love, my life is worthless. 
If I am healthy and wealthy, but do not depend on my Lord, that is true destitution.
May it be known that I consider Him more valuable. 

(Linking up with Holley Gerth ... here)

Comments

  1. Rebekah HughesApril 30, 2014 at 11:09 AM

    I hear your ache, your desire.
    May you be comforted to know that He will give you the desire of your heart when it longs for Him. For more of Him. To grow in His grace, knowledge and love. When we seek, we will find. When we ask, it will be answered.
    Be encouraged today. And thank you for encouraging.
    Sharing a cup of coffee for our hearts.

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    1. Lydia HartApril 30, 2014 at 12:10 PM

      Amen, Rebekah. Thank you for the gift of your words.

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  2. blestbutstrestApril 30, 2014 at 11:35 AM

    Thank you for the 'cup of coffee' for my heart :). Your words are so very true and a lovely reminder that HE IS ENOUGH. Blessings to you on this beautiful day.

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  3. Lanette HaskinsApril 30, 2014 at 12:39 PM

    Lydia I'm praying too that you would be comforted. Thank you for sharing your heart and your beautfiul words.

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    1. Lydia HartApril 30, 2014 at 5:46 PM

      Oh Lanette. Thank you so much for those prayers. Very needed, very appreciated. My heart is full, reading your words.

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  4. SarahMay 1, 2014 at 4:32 PM

    I so hear these words from your heart. Isn't it wonderful to know Jesus wants all of us-the good, the bad, the fears, and the joys. Hope you have a wonderful day!

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